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MOVED TO... 

http://arlaineee.blogspot.com/

12 more days.

" But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love."   


I'm happy, & that's all the satisfaction I need for now, so please, No ruin it for me okay?

please & thank you.









""

Before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean.

Hmm, well, looks to me like they're not so clean, are they? hahahha.-well from what I remembered.


....mhm YEAH. thats what I thought!





'You can talk the talk, but you can't walk the walk'
I'd love to see you do both at the same time.


psh, that's IF you can.







"Let's compare scars & I'll show you who's is worse"

I GIVE UP!

I give up, I give up, I give up.

I get it, I'm stupid, I know I've been playing a game that I can't win.

so...

I GIVE UP. I'M DONE.

Forget that promise I made to myself, that promise ends today!
 & to hell with everything else.thank you very much.
 
Er was right, I'm so stupid & stubborn, why don't I ever take my own advice!
He said just "grow up, move on & just get over it!"
& you know what he's so right. ..& that's exactly what I'm going to do.

....'Grow up, move on, & just get over it!'

Its time for me to accept reality. Pain does draw reality.& I'm getting use to it.

I swear I am. & This time, I'm being totally serious. I realized a lot of things these past days.
I know better than that.

Man, I hate to see everything we worked/cried/fought for go to waste *sighs*...


well that's it. I'm done.

Game is so Over.



Goodbye to you.

Starting today, you'll be non-existent in my life, 'til YOU decide to be existent in my life again.

I don't really know how to consider us anymore; are we really friends? or we just all of a sudden stop being "friends" then befriend each other when we get the chance? or when YOU want to?! I thought we were good or AT LEAST okay now, then you bring the "silence." and over and over again. I really don't understand you anymore, one day we're good, the other days we're not??! but now it turned into something that's just frking awkward. I feel like I haven't spoken to you in like forever, even though its really only been 2 days or so. I really don't know what to tell you right now, I'm still at lost with words to say to you, I miss you though, I do. I just don't know anymore or what to say to you anymore...I'm sorry. I just miss the "old us"; when there was actually an 'US'...I wish we can go back, way back before the un-loyalty, before the un-trust, before the days when we argue about direction, like where to go from here. Most of the time i wonder where the heck we're going with this. you know i love you, but we don't understand each other,I don't understand you, & You DEFINITELY don't understand me.

You've always been there for me, for every complain, for every suffering, for every cheering up, for every hurt. we WERE inseparable but then I don't know what happened, I guess all this time apart from each other made this huge gap and tall wall between us? but I hope you know that I'm always here for you...It just really hurts how you don't acknowledge & see that... I i.m. you & you sign off, I text you & you don't reply,(after sitting by my stupid phone & waiting for like hours!).. so what do you expect me to think? am I right? but, I get it. You're pushing me away. oh yeah just like you said, YOU WANT TO BE ALONE, so from now I on just for you...I'll stay away.

I can't go on like this, feeling jealous, worried, depressed and what not all the time. I just can't, I know better than that.



You know how they say if you give up something, you'll gain something new, but thing is...is that thing something worth giving up?...


**ahh, & I really apologize for never returning anyones phone calls or replying to anyones text msgs,pls. forgive me, I feel soo bad, I'm sorry you guys. I will try to get back to all of you, asap.
Ugh, I think I should just turn off both of my phones so that I don't have to make up any excuses, & so that I won't be tempted to sit by my phone all day waiting for a call of txt msg that never happens. I always bring my own hopes up for nothing, I'm stupid like that. stupid I tell you.



.....well I sure don't think it is
"...& sometimes you have to let go of the one you love just to see if they love you enough to come back to you"